I can’t believe January has passed me by without hardly a mention. I know in recent times, many people use the excuse of ‘I’ve been so busy..’ In my head that’s how I feel too; what interests me more, however, is how easily the equilibrium gets knocked off when a couple more things are added to the scales. Suddenly it seems we partly shut down in order to manage the immediate.
It was somewhat of an emotionally charged day at the beginning of last week, when I received a text from Hubsband whilst I was at work to say that he was fashioning a new window in our house. This had been something of an idea of his in recent years, but, I somehow always managed to keep it on a back burner. I had realised, that, when he asked for an angle grinder for Christmas that my time was running out. It wasn’t that I don’t or didn’t want a new window, it was the extra disruption that I could have done without. Especially as I have spent the last few months having a declutter! The house, now much more minimal, was about to come under attack by brick dust, which as many will know, gets everywhere….
Perhaps it wasn’t just the dust and disruption that was the problem, but as an educator, albeit a part-time one, school reports are a time consuming and stressful business. And, as the text came through I was in the middle of this time. When I arrived home later in the day, the moment I walked through the door, I realised I couldn’t even find place to sit down; I couldn’t even see through the dust, let alone, sit down and concentrate on something.
As the week progressed, no reports were competed, but the dust was eventually cleared up. Now all almost 2 weeks later, both the window and school reports almost complete; I am left with the feeling of, it didn’t seem that bad, and with the questions how come the mind seemed to completely shut down? Where’s the balance? What can we do to manage better next time?